IM PISSEDDD 🤬🤬🤬🗣️

disclaimer; freaky topics, TW: men 🤢

tell me why i was talking to this guy

(first mistake i know) 

and he's the most PERFECT SCRUMPTIOUS MAN EVER

in the beginning.. 

this guy was into like all the things i was and i was like woah wait let me let my guard down a bit

because he was genuinely so understanding

first red flag i saw was his music taste. 

male manipulator music.. 

now i can't say it's bad music but stereotypes tell me this man is EVIL

anyways we would facetime a lot and he'd get so excited to talk to me

we watched movies together and reviewed them it was really fun

getting to know him more he's an hour away, he has a JEEP with all the cute ducks, and another red flag.. 

he's a gooner.. 

now, i don't judge people for things like that, plus he's a teenage boy i didn't really expect much. 

anyways.. come to find out he matched my freak HEAVY

like woah this is new hey i like this

i don't express myself in that way much because im very shy but he got me to open up

and was it FUN

i really have always been grossed out by guys down there.. 

but his was genuinely nice, not ugly at all

not to mention BIG

obviously exciting for me because im not used to that at all

so we would send each other stuff and do stuff otp

hey don't judge, if you knew him you would too! 

pet names and ugh it made me melt

he was just getting into working out so he had little muscles

it was so cute ugh

ANYWAYS

i was down BAD for this man

about a month into talking he said i was everything he ever wanted in a girl

and i was like ouuu okayyy

he was honestly all i wanted in a guy too

so i asked if he saw us going anywhere real

he said yes thank everything

we got to know each other really well

he listened to my kind of music for me and i listened to almost every mac demarco song for him

i was #1 listener of him just for that guy

we genuinely got along so well and i could be cringe around him and he would too

then.. 

he said the three words

i love you

i was terrified i did NOT say it back

i asked him about it and he said "well i say it for you"

and i was like "to make me happy?"

"yes puppy, but that doesn't mean i don't love you, i just say it with more meaning for you"

uhhh sure. 

long story short this FUCKASS MAN PLAYED IN MY FACE

THIS DUDE SAID 

"I don't think we can be anything serious, i just can't love somebody through a screen" 

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO..?? 

BUT I THOUGHT..??

OH OKAY.. 

what's even worse is 

HE LOOKED LIKE FUCKING NATE ARCHIBALD IM SO PISSED THIS MAN GOT OUT OF MY GRASP

then he blocked me on spotify so.. 

it's honestly wraps i think

anyways no im pissed he was so perfect

i hate men

ugh

ew