im sick of this.

so this weekend was not great for me. i went out saturday and ran into my ex husbands friends, you know the ones who are always talking their shit about me. recently theyve told my ex that he should empty my bank account and try to get full custody. mind you, to get full custody in the state and situation that he is in, id literally have to be abusive or drugs and couldnt take care of our daughter. which i am not abusive and i am not on drugs so i dont know what the fuck theyre on about. but anyway, i went up to one of the wives that im cool with to say hi and then she went back to their group and told everyone that the interaction was weird. like what? we literally spoke like 5 words to each other so how was it weird? and then i seen a different guy and he asked how i was doing and i said something like "oh, like you care," because im not gonna say "oh, you know im drinking every fucking weekend, i have no friends or family here, i dont feel supported at all, all i want to do is fucking drink, and, to top it all off, all you bitches are weird," in the middle of the bar. he got all butt hurt and asked me why i have to be so confrontational like what? yall have literally been talking shit about me this whole time how do you think im going to react? and the thing that really gets me is theyll hang out with my ex, theyll hang out with the guy that i made out with but not me. they can not be cool with me. and theyll hang out with the other couple thats getting a divorce. theyll literally invite her out and hang out with her all the time when she openly flirted with one of the guys in the group, but im the flirty one. im sick of it. and it makes me think about when we all used to hang out, like did yall ever really like me or was everything all fake? i genuinely just dont know what i did to piss everyone off. all i can think of is either yall never really liked me as a friend or yall are mad that it wasnt you that i kissed. because why did the man that called me flirty say, "well, i just dont understand, why him?" like what does that even mean? cause who else was there? its giving yall are jealous it wasnt you. i dont know, im just sick of it all but yall tell me what yall think!