im so doneee 🫩

I spent years, basically. Supporting my best friend no matter what, right?

So he has this friend group for years, they are four counting him, one of them is his ex bf. There has been so much things that has happened in that group, things that would get better if they simply gave each other TIME, no even a "we will never talk again" just timeeee, to think and change whatever!!!

so he stopped talking to them for a little and i was like, is kind of fucked up, since he learn they were trash talking about him, and i said that maybe is better to go separate ways, same with the ex since, 

ok the ex has always  wanted to give this, "i say what i think and idc if is hard" except is not the case since last week I told him something ik he was saying about me in a really peaceful manners like "ik you dont like me too much but i appreciate that you did this for [my friend]" 

he started acting like he had never said anything!!!!!! he also broke up with my friend twice and regretted It, twice. Both reasons he told my friend he was too needy and clingy😭

and he was also really jealous of my friendship with my friend and wouldnt stop implying i liked him, thing that makes me extremely uncomfortable. they both know It

after sm drama discovering the ex bf had the habit to only complain when my friend messed up to their other friends, never saying what HE DID or updating when they fixed things, he admits to me that the day we both went to the hospital with him since, smth messed up happened to him, they had made out

mind you, the other friends didn't wanna talk things out because my friend was clearly not in a good head space, but the ex simply decides is a good idea to make out? even when my friend has asked you for space little before because the break up hurt him a lot?

and what makes me angrier. my friend, tells me you they made out with this smile, like, he knows is going to make me frustrated, but he is used to me being resigned and being like 'what am i going to do with you🙄', except this time i was super fed up and just stared at him point black like "what do you want me to say? 'there It goes Dylan again' and laugh or smth, bc i dont find it funny", he obviously didn't expect that reaction.. he also admitted (casually) to feed along some of the jealousy from the ex about me, i Guess he is used to me just not getting angry at him for everything, tho this time the Next day i made It clear that i didnt like that since It just made the ex more angry at me and i wanted to be excluded from that bullshit. 

so basically i asked him to not tell me what he does with his ex, he knows everyone want them break up, is not like they are bad people, but they are clearly not compatible anymore, It happens

so yeah, now my friend is like acting like i got super angry at him or screamed at him, like tiptoeing around me, as if i had ever asked him for anything, and i feel guilty about It and It makes me angry bc i shouldnt feel guilty about that 😭 so yeah