I'm so fucking tired of this (stalking ex rant)
I don't even know what to say rn. I can't stand this anymore... To start from the beginning, I started dating my friend, Reed about 9 months ago. I was in school at the time. I'm not going to sugar coat anything so here are the TW (Sexual abuse, manipulation, rape.) I can't even say we started off good because we didn't. From the start, anytime we would hang out together he would sexualize me even if it was in front of friends and I told him to stop. Anytime we hung out, we had sex. It didn't matter if I said no at first, or if I said I was tired. He would insist, and beg. There were some times when he would mention us having sex and I didn't even remember it, because I was taking a nap and half asleep. I realize now that this was rape. And whenever we weren't hanging out, we were texting ( even during school.) or calling. It got to the point that we were falling asleep on call. By this point, the relationship was draining me, and I no longer had energy not motivation to go to school. So I started homeschooling, with the excuse that I was being bullied. While this was going on, I had no friends whatsoever. The people I had been friends with before me and Reed got together were pushed away by him, because he didn't like them, and told me they were bad friends. It was a month or so after stopping Public school that one day I realized something while I was at his house. He didn't love me, he loved using me. That day, after I told him I had a headache, and that I was tired and I was going to go home once my mom picked me up, he raped me. It was different this time, I was awake, and I told him I wasn't in the mood. As usual, he asked me if there was anything he could do to get me in the mood and proceeded to touch me, as I was actively pushing myself away and pulling his hands away from me. From here after I can't remember many details, I was a disaster to say the least. I broke up up with him in a fit of rage. Since then he has never stopped contacting me. Since then He has gone to old servers, asked his friends to text me, and texted me himself through apps or websites I rarely use. I have fallen victim to the "Epiphany" narcissist tactic 2 times and don't intend on doing so again. Reed, I know you will see this, because you tracked me from young writers society to space hey, to here. Im telling you to fucking stop, and get intense therapy. And to everyone else who read up until this point, thank you, and have a good night.
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Senn
Whoa, seeing the comment made it even worse, first of all, im sorry to hear that all of this happened, its hard to go through it and yet u had the courage to publish ur experience. and im sorry that u had to go through this. Second of all, The guy in the comments, if u want to prove a point, take it to private messages or to court. Not here..
just saying, he also could have taken it to pms or court instead of telling everyone I raped him for the second time. lying about something that serious is a dick move.
by KittyCursed; ; Report
Thank you for your support, it really means a lot, ps. He's never even used this website before lmao. He's been just straight up stalking me and I'm tired of it
by Mossmartian16; ; Report
KittyCursed
okay, for one, I didn't rape you. I NEVER did that, I got consent beforehand EVERY time. just because you don't remember it doesn't mean you didn't say yes. the time you mentioned, I was trying to help you feel better, you hadn't told me beforehand that you werent in the mood, and in response, you hit me. you also told me you loved me, stripped in front of me, and then turned around and told the entirety of YWS that you didn't. you also always took your anger out on me, when I was sad, when I needed you, you yelled and cussed and triggered me into panic attacks multiple times a day for trivial reasons. you are JUST as toxic as I am. I never raped you, stop telling people I did, those friends WERE toxic, your ex manipulated you, and Nola was meaner than a friend should be to you. I have no idea what "epiphany" you're talking about. I realized harassing you was wrong, and have tried so hard not to. goodbye, and for any third parties watching, we all love drama when we're not a part of it, don't we.
Yeah fuck off Reed, you're just proving my point.
by Mossmartian16; ; Report
stop telling people I did things I never did that could get me in actual, legal trouble and I gladly will atp. you don't know how much of a relief it is to finally dislike you.
by KittyCursed; (edited); Report
Reed you need to stop fucking contacting my brother I swear to God if you ever try to come to our house I will beat the living shit out of you I am so fucking tired of having my brother come into my room sobbing just wanting to be left the fuck alone by you and you refuse to do that you refuse to give him any amount of repreave you refuse to give him a single fucking break every other day you come fucking begging at your knees saying that you want him back yet all you do is lie and lie and lie and hurt him over and over and over I want you to know that I will do horrible fucking things to you if I ever see you in person again you need to leave my brother the fuck alone
by Canadian Mixedtale; (edited); Report