I’m so sad

I’m so fucking ugly. I’m so fucking ugly nobody wants to look at me or compliment me. It’s starting to hurt because I try everyday to get ready  a eand all I get is a hello and they walk away. I want a boyfriend so bad but I cant get one because I’m not pretty I fucking hate it because all my friend are so pretty and it’s frustrating when they go after the boys I like so now I have to seem uninterested in them because literally anyone will say yes versus with me they’ll just nod at me and walk away or block me. I don’t want to be alone anymore nobody fucking wants me not even the ugly boys or lesbians and I’ve just been thinking about drowning myself in the tub or overdosing on my sleeping pills because they’ll make fun of me I’m so scared of that too I’m not tough I’m not exactly sensitive either I’m just weird I don’t belong in this world I should probably slice my shit right off there’s nothing left for me to do besides starving myself and crying all night wishing somebody was thinking about me and holding me or my hand. I just really need someone to help me I want someone to love me for me and not my body.