IM SO SCARED💔🫩

I have to start doing this counseling thing because I’m a very anxious person and my mom sees this a lot whenever I go to the doctors office like my blood pressure will sky rocket or whenever I’m doing something like presenting my heart rate will just go up and my Apple Watch will just notify me abt it like damn I fuckign know bru💔 but my doctors and my mom want me to go to counseling so whenever I get anxious I can find ways to help myself not feel that anxious or just sorta maintain it or something like that idk but it’s like wtf.. yk? Like ive just been living with me bro if im still here then i dont fucking need counseling I’m fine dawg I can keep living my life without getting help from some fucking councilor and it’s super scary to me because I’m scared about what she’s gonna ask me or what they’ll tell my mom and I don’t want my mom to be fucking Chismeando and telling my tias and her coworkers I don’t really see the reason why I need this honestly..