Im so scared for tmrw

Dude my dad has to have a 6-7 hr surgery tmrw on his neck (my mother told me he has some spinal condition where he has so much arthritis in his neck its crushing his spinal chord??) And he's had to wear a neck brace for 3 weeks if i remember correctly. I wasnt too worried abt it (obviously i was worried about it but not sick about it. I had hope and STILL have hope that he'll be okay) but today he came in and was saying stuff like 'all my family came to see me today incase i don't make it tomorrow' and 'if i die it'll be my time and i'll be ready if it is' and it's got me so fucking worried

And i have to go to school tomorrow all day cause my stupid dual credits are starting tmrw and i can't miss it cause my school has to get me set up. 

At least yesterday i got to go to his house for five hours and we watched movies and eat pizza. If something does go terribly wrong i'll cherish that memory forever

But anyways i just needed to vent goodbye