I’m stupid I’m so stupid why do I have to be so shy

I could’ve talked to my crush today 2 TIMES 2 TIMES AND THE SECOND TIME I THOUGHT I WAS GOIJNG TO BUT THE TEACHER JUST LET ME GER AWAY WITH NO ID AND I COULDNT WALK BACK ID LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT IM SO STUPID. Dear god, if you see this I’m so so sorry I’ve been asking so long for this and you’ve gave me three chances that I either DIDINT know it was a chance or I was too shy!!!!! I hate myself for this. I’m so so sorry god, please give me another chance PLEASE PLEASE I only DIDINT get in line cuz I DIDINT want him to think I was a stalker cuz he’s caught me looking at him so many times he probably thinks I’m a weirdo UGH GF PLS PLS GOD IM SO SORRY IM STUPIDITY IM GONNA WEAR MY LUCKY SOCKS TOMMOROW. IM GONNA DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO TALK TO HIM TOMORROW. BUT ALSO TODAY BUT MAINLY TOMORROW!!!!!!! IM GONNA BRING OUT THE JULI BAKER IN ME!!!!! BRAVE. BRAVE. BRAVE. BRAVE BRAVEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL TALK TO HIM. ITS NOW OR NEVER PLS GIVE ME ADVICE GUYS WE ONLY SEE EACH OTHER ON THE BUS 🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩