“Every choice you make is a compensation for the last one, as if the future is never free to break from the past”
I feel like im stuck in this place. Like ive already tried enough. I dont even know what im trying to.
Everybody seems to think im lazy. As if it wasnt hard enough for me to get out of my bed every morning. (Depression sucks NEVER doing it)
I sometimes feel so useless. I just want to have a time to rest and be calm and happy.
I don’t know why im writing my troubled inner feelings here. Where everyone could see it but i feel like maybe i need to let it out.
Depression its such a stupid thing with such a stupid name. If theyd let me name it between depression and arthur i would choose depression. Why do they treat people with it like they crazy. If maybe my family understood maybe they would stop being like they are. I hate the feeling of being constantly tired, mentally and physically, and i hate taking so much medication that i feel doesnt work. Could you believe i now have to take something they call “california rocket fuel”? Wow, no way that goes south.
I dont want to be fixed
I want to believe
I just want to be missed
Just sing me to sleep
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Fo0L
Oh, I know the feeling. Often, a person's value is based on how productive they are, how much they create, or how much they are capable of doing in 24 hours every day. Families often don't fully understand what it's like to feel so depressed, or perhaps they do but they handle it differently; Either way, people are usually more focused on their own perspective than on that of others. I think you are valid, I have felt the same way for a long time and I know the monumental effort it takes to get back on your feet. I think you're not completely alone in this, and if you feel that way, I'd be happy to listen and support you. I know that just having someone to listen can make all the difference. :)
jordynsjunkjournal89
If I even mention my depression to my parents, they deny me and I'm scared I'll end up dead or crazy. I feel for you dude. Life is a brat. Maybe, just maybe it will work out. if not, just kn0w I was rooting for you.