I'm tired boss

i'm fucking done, I'm over it, no mas 

I feel sick 

sick to my stomach

sick in my head

my will is rotten

my want is gone and all I feel is hate

hate towards the way of the world

hate of people

hate towards the way things are

hate towards the way things will be

hate for myself

I don't want to be with myself anymore

half a year of happiness traded for a life of trauma

"would you rather live only for the next 5 years and have the happiest time of your life or live to 80 having happy moments come occasionally?"

I chose the former

if I you were to ask the me from 1 year ago why I wanted to kms I would've told you that I wanted to end all future suffering because I didn't realistically think my life would be happier as I grew older

"a permanent solution to a temporary problem"

 I don't care about others because I cant feel for them

I don't care about myself because I cant feel

I really don't care

I'm itching for a reason so please give me one

if this acc goes inactive then you know what that means