I'm turning 18 next Friday. (Vent)

I don't really know how I feel about it to be honest, I never thought I'd live this long so...

I mean I'm kinda happy/proud, but also like, what now.

I've been getting to typical questions like "what college do you want to go to" "what are your plans for the future" etc, and the truth is I kinda don't know.

I have some kind of plan but whenever I talk about it with my parents they don't seem "happy" about it for a lack of a better word.

I don't want to think their disappointed but... idk

idk

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I'm scared because I care about my family, my parents, but I don't know what's going to happen when I fully come out to them in the future because I know what's going to happen but I want to live the life I want.

It just feels like we should know what we want with life now but what I want will change everything and I don't know what to do.

idk