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sensitive topic warning just need to get it off my chest 

i only have two close friends and i wouldn’t want it any other way. one i’ve known for 3 years, the other for a year.

 these are the only people i’ve fully opened up to, since we all like similar things and we all don’t live under the best circumstances..

recently the friend of 3 years started drifting apart, and it’s happened before. that’s fine by me, they could text me once a year and i’d still consider them to be somebody i care deeply about. this time they completely want to cut ties with me simply because they’ve started school, began working and completely changed their lifestyle… fine by me. as long as they’re happy and i’m not getting in their way. all i said was that i’ll always be around for you if you need somebody to talk to. of course i’m bitter, but whatever.

i now only have my one friend.  he’s in no better of a place than i am… keeps talking about not making it for another 5 months. whether that is true or not (likely untrue as long as i keep him in check but he can be quite spontaneous…) i can’t help but think

despite everything i’ve lived through and despite how hard i’ve fought to keep living my miserable life i will always end up left alone

i wish the best for everybody and nothing more

i don’t really want advice regarding the situation and i know all 3 of us need to get help and that is Not what i want to hear because i know… its just a shitty situation whatever whatever whatever

anyways, good morning. it’s time for school!!