impending doom

bruuuthhhaaaa, my parents are back on my ass now about online school, which is kinda boring, and my counselor told me if i dont get my shit together i might have to go to a different school, which is no bueno. Idk, Its like I like my friends and all but sometimes they can just be a pain in the ass, which i obviously cant tell them or i would have no one to talk to, sit next to, or even walk with. I would avoid that route since like 80% of the people at my school are either weirdos, dumbasses, or assholes. Lately I've been feeling like my mind has been spinning, I dont know whats on with that but I dont know which direction I want my life to go into, I cant type properly anymore and I've just been feeling ransacked.

Friday, It was the last period of the day so I was already ready to go home and tired of everyone, and me and my friends ( i think) were playing blackjack and it was okay. Then the host of the game invited these 2 girls behind him to play with us. I dont really have a history with them but i know them alright. midway through the game they start looking at me and started giggling. I didnt really like the sound or look of that so i kinda just stopped looking at that side of the table in general. theres a chance that they geniunely weren't looking at me but i dont think so.

5 hours later i show up for the football game that my school had for the play offs, my crush was going too so i was like "aight mane". she said to call her once I got there but she was at the end of the line when i got there so we conversated a little until we got in the stadium. I hung out with my 2 friends that were there until they both got caught up with different people and I was just left in the middle of the stands looking like a lonely pos. It wasn't until the 4th quarter that I just decided to sit next to her as I didnt like the way my position was just being a loser. we talked for a little bit and then one of her friends walked up and started talking to her about something i was clueless about so i kinda felt like a cuck. he had a blanket that was warming me up so i didnt really care until the game ended. She got up with the other dude and started walking while i was carrying this bum ahh dude's blanket and just gave it back to him. I left like 5 minutes after we lost, but i felt like i was just being watched by everyone, and not in a good way either.