intrusive thoughts

the more i try to fight my intrusive thoughts, the stronger they get. but it feels impossible to stop fighting them when my brain is convinced that everyone can read my mind. the correct thing to do (as i've been taught) is to let them be there and don't engage with them, but if i don't fight them off or mentally "give context" about them being intrusive thoughts, then people will think they're my horrible thoughts. constant loop. constant battle with my brain. i love /sarc having mental torture disorder (ocd). used to be terrified that i was developing schizophrenia before i got the ocd diagnosis because of how borderline-delusional i am (didn't help that i have family members with schizophrenia).