it got worse

I don't know if it's just accumulated trauma or if this move is just really bad. But the SLIGHTEST bit of yelling angling etc has me shaking; I honestly think its just from everything I've been going through, I've gotten more jumpy over the years, more paranoid, more weak in general if I'm being honest. I dont think I'll be able to handle anymore of this bullshit honestly. I'm so close to cracking as it is, god knows what will happen next time. But then again I said that last time. But thats whatever I guess. At least we will be in a better area. 

idk what else to say, by brain has gotten worse at thinking over the years, hopefully its just some PTSD BS and can be fixed lol.