it’s 4am

it’s the first time im months im awake this late

i spent the whole day talking and sobbing and thinking

i also spent the whole night figuring our how this place works……major life decisions need a distraction for the mind and this is exactly the perfect spot 

this is only mine

whereas everything else i touch is his

his music his games his art

everything he has touched in my life is his

i love him for that

and that’s why i needed this blog

i needed something thats mine

gnight