It’s deep

I thought I’d get my thoughts out here. I’m thinking about my dad and the relationship I had with him. Past tense because I don’t associate with him anymore. I’m the type of person who never lets anything effect me or I try to hide it if so. The one thing that will always leave me feeling sick is my dad left me and just walked away so easy that it now infects my life with every one I meet I get so scared that people will leave just as fast as my dad did, while writing this I know this is going to happen every soon there is someone who knows me a lot but in September I will never see them again and it’s hitting hard. I don’t know how to deal with my emotions and they all come out at once. I’ve never thought I would openly talk about this on the internet but it’s so heavy that I need to put it somewhere.