throughout the day when I was helping carrying stuff to the storage truck all I can think about is what my mom said when I messed something up, she just groans and shouts. and gets mad pretty easily. my mom is so so stressed all the time and I wish I could always help her, but even just being there makes her irritated and that's the last thing I want to make her feel, I'm glad someone else was there to make the situation simpler but it still hurts knowing how useless and slow I am, that's all completely on me.
I don't even know why I still bother to want her to feel okay I thought I left that behind ages ago.
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A lot of the times I feel like that too, my parents argue a lot, especially in the summer and my mom just gets angry at most of the things I do- I'm not trying to upstage you, I just wanted to say you're not alone. I hope the situation gets better soon and do know that there will be moments where she'll think back on how she reacted to your effort and feel bad, even if you're not always aware of those moments. You're not useless or slow, you're trying your best and that's all you can do so try not to beat yourself up on this ^^
Thank you, I'm still trying to push through for the moment
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