Dear God

Hiiiii guys, Sal here!!!!!! As much as I have no gripes with religious people or beliefs, this vent is NOT Christian safe. It is also NSFW, so keep that in mind. If that offends you, then I wouldn't recommend reading this <3

Dear God,

Why do the Christians depict you as a twink 9 times out of 10? Okay, jokes aside, why are you such a cunt? Oh yeah, "Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself" (Matthew 22:37-39) unless they're gay, trans, Jewish, Muslim, Pagan, Buddhist, Hindu, kinky, Atheist, drug addicts, alcoholics, or mentally ill. Yeah, seems real rational. They're hypocritical arseholes. So you can love a rapist catholic priest but not a queer person? Go die in a hole. Hell sounds more fun than your puritanical bullshit.

Yes, I am a dirty queer. Terrifying, I know. But at least I'm kind (or try to be). Am I really worse than Jeffrey Dahmer, who (by Christian rules) is going to heaven yet I'm not? Suck my clit and enjoy it, your rules are gayer than your saviour.

The amount of repressed people I've met at the catholic school I attend (I know, slime me out) is unbelievable. It's not just repressed homosexuality, but sexuality in general. The second you get the slightest bit horny (WHICH IS NATURAL) you need to pray the Hail Mary. That's wild.

I never had problems with feeling repressed or whatever, I grew up in an atheist household, and I practice witchcraft... not as much as I should, but whatever. But my Dad did, and his siblings did as well. I mourn for the people they could've been, the years they could've spent doing anything other than staring down the bottom of an empty liquor bottle, but oh well. At least they were kind enough to save me from the repression.

I've always known I was queer, and thankfully it was never demonised for me. I had the choice to live, and I'm aware of how lucky I am for this. It's rare to find unconditional love, as sad as that is.

Maybe this is a byproduct of years of being raped as a child, but as I've gotten older, I've discovered I'm actually quite kinky. "Woaaah, Sal, TMI!!" nearly no one reads these, it doesn't matter. 

Kinks are strange to me. You can take Freud's interpretation and assume I want to fuck my Dad (I love him, but I'd rather kill myself; Freud is projecting imo), you can take in the Pavlovian Association, or you could simply accept that different people are into different things. What's interesting though, is the fact that I'll go to hell for liking being tied up and dominated. What a stupid reason to go to hell!! I'll be in there with Hitler because I want to spice up my sex life. THAT makes a lot of sense, sure.

I'm not talking about Paraphilias. I'm sorry to anyone who experiences those urges if they are unwanted. That's different.

Why am I damned due to what I enjoy? Why is it that I'll kiss a woman and burn in hell? I'm going off what teachers and preachers alike have told me - interpretation of religion is different from individual to individual, blah blah blah. 

Why can't I eat pussy and be happy? Why can't I be dominated and tied up, and be happy? Why must I constantly look over my shoulder in fear for something that doesn't exist?

God, go fuck yourself.

Regards, 

Sal <3