its the kind of tired sleep wont fix

someone on here thinks I make my whole personality about my problems but tbh as of late its all I can ever really think about 

its just a lot 

I kinda want to talk and be with someone but I know it's not meant for me. 

So what do I do? just sleep?, I woke up early today and there was genuinely nothing I wanted to do but lay in bed and cuddle with my daki, but in the back of my mind I call myself crazy.

I don't like real people, they're flawed and complicated. Characters are much easier to understand 

I'm so vulnerable right now that if someone told me to die I would, I would sacrifice my life for someone just because I had nothing better to do 

I cant stop myself from talking in past tense, it just slips through like its what it's supposed to be 

I keep telling myself to just wait until school starts to follow through but what does that mean??? does he think I wont go through it? 

I cant tell whats real or fake anymore, icant tell, its all lies, idk

just make it stop, just shut the fuck up for one fucking second 

Ik I've said this before but It feels like fate is calling me, like this is what is supposed to be, that I'm not making it past 16. She is haunting me I know it, just waiting for me somewhere out there, waiting... until I realize there is no hope in trying to defy what is meant to happen

Can everyone just be quiet for like 2 years?