not an original experience, i'm sure everyone can relate but i'm just making a quick blog post about it anyway!
currently listening to DEATHMETAL my panchiko <3
i'm 'studying' for a maths final tmr. i've always been shit at maths and always will be and i wish i cared more. this is shit. this is ACTUAL shit. i hate hate hate this. i would rather die than even think about maths, but here i am.
this is soooooooo dull!!!!!!!!
sitting at my desk late at night looking at stupid little maths equations and word problems is doing my head in- i can't stop thinking about my life. how the second i dont have to do this shit, the second im free, i will live my life. i will really, properly live it. i will travel and make art and be free and find love and be myself and not spend my time doing things i don't care for.
i understand i should be realistic and get good grades to get into a good college and get a good career so i can fund all that, and that thinking like this will be downfall. for some reason, i dont care?
my "i wont waste my life" mindset will be the EXACT reason my life is wasted..
but idk, i have this crazy feeling everything will work out for me in the end!
luv u all, fuck maths, i'm going to sleep </3333
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𝐌𝐢𝐫𝐢 𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋🕯️
omd i relate to this so hard- im so super close to saying "fuck everything". Its crazy how much precious time i have wasted js cuz of school. ALL I WANT IS FREEDOM. I also want to travel the world, find love, buy a cottage, be whimsy but traveling is so expensive nowadays UGHH i need to have good education to get a good job so i can afford all of this so all roads lead to school
i js know im gonna end up homeless if i continue like this- Good luck thoo!! <3
Isco
What do you want ? And all the best
i may be misinterpreting ur question cause im lowk dense, but all i want in life is to make art and find love and be myself without worrying about peoples opinions and expectations of me !!
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pursue it
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thank you, i will
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I too will do that
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