I've been having a horrible couple of days

(TW: suicide, gender dysphoria)

I don't normally like to talk about things like this, however recently one of my friends attempted to commit suicide. They were luckily caught by their roommate, however I felt genuine fear at the prospect of losing a loved one for the first time. I feel so sad and upset, even though they are still alive and breathing. My cat, who I've only had for a little, ran away today too. I miss her so much. I just feel so overcome by sadness and it's really hard to process. I've also been feeling dysphoric around my body and the way people view me. People keep using she/her for me and calling me by a name I no longer connect with. I know things will get better, but it just feels hard.