Ugh, Someone Please Save Me From My Own Brain Right Now
Okay, so I am convinced that boredom and stress are actually the exact same thing disguised in different outfits. Like, how am I currently drowning in an ocean of schoolwork but also dying of absolute boredom? It literally makes zero sense.
I’m sitting here staring at my chemistry homework, and my brain is completely blank. I have a massive test tomorrow, three assignments due by midnight, and a group project where I’m doing 100% of the work (classic). I should be panicking. My heart is doing that weird fluttery thing, so I know the stress is there. But at the same exact time, I am so incredibly bored that staring at the texture on my ceiling feels like a thrilling hobby.
Why does life do this? When you have nothing to do, you’re bored. When you have everything to do, your brain just shuts down and decides to be bored as a defense mechanism. It’s like a laptop when the fan starts spinning super loud and then the screen just goes black. That is me right now. I am the crashed laptop.
Instead of actually doing anything productive, here is a list of things I have done in the last hour to avoid my life:
- Re-organized my Spotify playlists by "vibe" for the tenth time.
- Stared into the open fridge for five minutes, hoping a gourmet meal would magically appear. (Spoiler: it didn't, just old celery).
- Scrolled TikTok until my thumb hurt, even though I wasn't even laughing at the videos.
- Checked my screen time and immediately wanted to cry.
It’s this horrible cycle. You’re stressed about the stuff you need to do, which makes you paralyzed, which makes you bored, which makes you waste time, which makes you more stressed. It’s exhausting! I feel like I need a vacation from my own thoughts.
If anyone else out there is currently procrastinating on something super important because your brain is simultaneously melting from boredom and exploding from stress... please tell me I'm not the only one.
Anyway, I guess I should actually try to read this chemistry chapter before my mom comes in here and yells at me. Wish me luck.
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💙𝓓𝓪𝓻𝓫𝔂!!! 💛
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No.....
My son you can’t feel like this
Lemme work my magic again
*puts hand over head like rapunzel did w the flower*
Flower, gleam and glow
Let your power shine
Make the clock
reverse
Bring back what once was mine
Heal what has been hurt
Change the Fates' design
Save what has been lost
Bring back what once was mine
What once was mine
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omg ugh im in the same boat. opened friendrewind because i dont wanna look at my OS lab,,,i dont wanna,,
Same like omg…and my mom is about to yell at me T-T
by ✨𝒷𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓃 𝓀𝒾𝓁𝓁𝑒𝒹 𝒞𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓃 ✨; ; Report