journal? what's a blog? college vent

I forgot to take my antidepressants last night and I want to die today lowk. I'm miserable and hate my life yada yada. 

I just want to play minecraft. I'm a freshman in college and I'm really stressed even though I barely have any work to do. I have a class in 30 minutes and just now turned in an assignment for it that I had a whole week to do. All I've been doing is playing minecraft and hanging out with my friends. How in the world does one balance a social life and their academic responsibilities in college? A couple days ago I stayed in this dude's dorm until 1am getting my ass beat in Mario Kart and Smash Bros by three men. Also my outfit today is NOT hard. I usually wear the hardest of fits every day but I can't find the fucking laundry machines in my dorm building so I guess I'm never wearing clothes again or whatever. I miss high school. I graduated with a 4.3 GPA because I was good at that, but college is different. I haven't missed an assignment yet but I've done most of them the very day that they're due. Which is a bad habit to have. 

Also I think everyone hates me and I'm a bad person. My friend left his computer charger in my dorm and I forgot to bring it to him when I was supposed to. So I think everyone thinks I'm an inconsiderate asshole now. I haven't been thinking this way since getting on Zoloft. I forgot to take it yesterday because I was playing minecraft. I just got Java for the first time ever and have a server with all of my new college friends. We on that grind. It's not the grind I should be on.