[ july 30th, 2004 // 11:02 AM ]

today feels like one of those days that just refused to end.

i got to work this morning thinking maybe it'd go by fast... but of course it didn't. every time i looked at the clock only a few minutes had passed. i swear time moves differently when you're somewhere you don't want to be.

i spending most of the day just zoning out and thinking about random stuff. remembering old summers when the only thing i had to worry about was whether my friends were gonna be online that night. now it's work... work... and more work. funny how fast everything changes.

the best part of the day was getting little songs stuck in my head. i kept mentally playing Dashboard Confessional, Taking Back Sunday, My Chemical Romance, and The Used. i wish i could've had my headphones on all day. music makes everything seem a little less gray.

it's weird... i can be surrounded by people all day and still feel completely alone. everyone talks but nobody really says anything. maybe i'm just overthinking everything again. i usually do.

i can't wait to get home tonight. i'm gonna grab something to eat, turn on the computer, sign into AIM, check MySpace, see if anyone left me a comment, and maybe stay up way too late talking to people i haven't seen in forever. if nobody's online i'll probably just listen to music with the lights off and stare at the ceiling for a while.

sometimes i miss how simple everything used to feel.

anyway... enough complaining. tomorrow's another day i guess. maybe it'll be better.

currently listening to:
♪ Dashboard Confessional – Screaming Infidelities
♪ My Chemical Romance – Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough for the Two of Us
♪ Taking Back Sunday – Cute Without the "E"
♪ The Used – Blue and Yellow