Kill Me.(studying vent idfk)

So, for starters, Im an eleventh grader. And in Turkey, we have two big ass final exams. So we have to study for them for four years nonstop if we wanna get something good. 

Well I was born in here, so I cant really change it. But oh my god how much I get forced to study. 

I studied normally in ninth and tenth grade, you know, studying the classes you had today etc, but in tenth grades summer, I started studying everyday for four hours. I mean... It doesnt seem that much since I dont have anything better to do. 

But NOW, I AM FORCED TO STUDY EVEN MORE. EVEN WHEN I HAVE LIKE FIVE SPARE HOURS OF DAY AFTER SCHOOL BEFORE I SLEEP! 

And dad expects me to ace every single test I make since "I studied in the summer" and gets angry when I dont.

The thing is, I just cant do it. I cant. I cant get more than 10 right answers out of 40.

And I feel faulty whenever dad says "You ARE going to be successful, you studied for three months! Im proud of you. If you cant do it still, you can just study arts. I dont even care anymore." (which is my dream but im scared of being homeless)

Yea whatever.

Rawr Xd