knowing you have a mental disability but you gotta wait until you're diagnosed isn't for the weak

bro its kinda obvious that i have autism due to a lot of things i struggle with in my day-to-day life and it's gotten to the point my doctor knows it too, but i gotta wait until i see him to get a proper diagnosis bc i do not wanna self-diagnose. it also kinda sucks bc i used to get bullied for "faking" or self-diagnosing even tho i never did that, especially from my ex (omfg that dude had a knack for saying everything i did was a lie or smth), so im pretty sure when i get diagnosed they'll see how dumb they were for not believing me :p. but it's very hard to wait lol. november 10th ughhh.. just come already!!