larp larp sahur

what to do, what to do 

its late, I'm sleep deprived 

don't read this 

I'm scared to die alone, but I have a feeling I won't be after its done

I'll just do what I did last time and have some good last moments, like giving a dog chocolate before putting him down 

if anyone wants anything from me then just dm or sumthin, idk I'll buy you a pizza or whatever

was going to make this a post on larping as sane to reverse how I got in this mess but I don't even want to get better, I just... I just want...

ig raising a daughter would be nice, give her all the things that I could never have 

but I'll leave that to the capable people 

what was the other option, going into the military to just make use of my amazing muscles? haha that would be nice I guess the more I think about it. Being given a purpose

but I don't think I'll ever get over this, i wish someone would just kill me