life :0 vent

:p hey been a long time since ive been on tis web lol, things have gotten alot tis school yearrrr its fucking insane. got caught doing SH bc my mom noticed my new scars n “shit” on paper work, got called in by the councilor which i got rly scared n had a long ass talk. now she has 2 check my backpack everyday for weapons or things i can cut myself w/, i keep having issues w/ my relationship n thinking my partner doesnt luv me anymore. AND my councilor says i need 2 b HOSPITALIZED 4 lik the 2nd time n says i have depression or anxiety or both (assuming both). even i got other councilors from a hospital 2 check my problems WITH MY MOM AT SKOOL n damn my voice was shaky bc of how anxious i was (n almost burst out crying) but get 2 go home early tho. ever since then i started 2 keep distance from my family n focus on myself…ig. lwk wanna b hospitalized but my strik ass fucking dad will beat the living shit out of me if he finds out bc he doesnt know the situation between me (only my mom n my sister). life is… ok ig so far, next week i can finally b fre from my councilor checking my backpack everyday. uh yea my life so far… :/