Life Diary #1

idrk what to call these so ig I'm just gonna call them life diaries?? ik no one actually gaf but whateves

my life is boring, BUT I've been thinking about getting a summer job or a job after Christmas at least.  I want to get a job at a library or a movie theater.

I got a car recently; it's a grey 2013 Hyundai Sonata. I named her Iris and she is my baby. I drove her once/twice and almost drove into someone.. oopies- I'm getting new glasses since I have trouble seeing when on the road.

I'm starting to get a new wardrobe too and styling stuff differently, think stereotypical loser and Hollister emo, ig. I'm also listening to new music artist and songs like Picture Me Broken, If You Can't Hang, Ohio Is For Lovers, and more.

I'm letting my hair grown out so I can give myself emo hair since it's too short to be cut like that currently and curly cuts don't look the best when straightened.

I've also got myself into a new friend group who accepts me for who I am and doesn't make me feel like a freak and an outcast. I made a Mamdani joke asking for a new friend group and it worked. which is reallyy funny lololol. In total I've made of 10 to 12 new friends since school started and I love hanging out w/ then everyday. I might even be going trick or treating w/ then this halloween! I still hang out with my 'old' friend group, but I spend more time with my new friends, but in still love all my friends^^

I'm also spending more time with 'older' friends who I wasn't very close too and getting closer to them then I have been. 

I'm kind of attempting to shoot my shot with my crush(who is a friend of mine) I'm scared to fuck it up and ruin out friendship, but I still wanna try.. i'm gonna call them Olli since ik they will never see this and anyh of my irls who have this acc don't now them. 

Olli is a sweetie and just as much of a weirdo as me;p I do like them, but I'm nervous bc I'm scared bc what if I don't actually and lead them on if they do reciprocate my feelings.. they're also quoiromantic so ik they understand how it feels. like we have alot in common. not many fandoms, but we still have alot in common. we're both ftm, poly, quoirom, boyflux, a yumeshipper, an alterhuman, ans probs more that I can't think of off the top of my head rn. 

I love spending time with him even if it's only less than an hour a day. I want to hang out with them more before I properly confess to him. I probably spend at least an hour or more thinking about then a day when I'm not actually with them

I'm actually thinking about what I want to do after I turn 18 which is weird. ik I want to move out by the time I'm at east 25 which sound like a I'm 'really' old but with job + housing markets now + my mental health issues it's a better goal in nothing. And I'm scared to live alone which is why I want to stay at a collage dorm to see how I would manage on my own.

I've straight up romanticized my entire life to stay at least decent enough to get out of bed everyday.

I'm getting into New fandoms + ones I haven't interacted with in a while like Assassination Classroom, Death Note, creepypasta, and more.

I don't read what I wrote after I wrote it so any sentences that don't make sense it's bc of that.. 

uuh I think that's it.. My classes aren't hard,  just mostly boring. I like goofing off and spending time with my friends in every class(i have all above 85's) 

I'm going to try to be more active on here and post more blogs!! still no YT channel but i might start one if YT will let me even create it..

OKKK Bye Bye!!!!!