life updates

i've been kinda inactive on here and since i really don't even know where to start. probably since college just started and i've been kinda slacking off then having to super quickly finish al my stuff on friday or saturday or both. and the mcr concert is coming up and i still have to get a new pair of shorts for my concert outfit.

but that's not bad in the slightest compared to some of the other stuff:

- ex-friend kicked me out of the server that i play fortnite with alex and bryon in. we stopped being friends a few months ago but the server kick came out of NOWHERE. sean had to put me in his server so i could still play with alex and byron. there's another ex-friend in that one, and lots of people i havent talked to in years, but i really don't care that much. well i do care, cuz since i blocked first, that friend might get mad once he sees i'm in the server and i don't wanna disturb the peace. wait actually i don't give a fuck, if he disturbs the peace i'm not really gonna react, and that's pretty easy. also, i blocked him because he made gross comments towards alex's YOUNGER sister.

- i remembered something from my SA and its kinda disturbing actually. he kinda used my own house key to hurt me right next to my YEAH. so i spiraled about that for a while and almost hurt myself but thankfully i didn't and i still have my 2+ years of being clean. it was also my first time texting a helpline and it was awkward but also a wake up call because something really needs to change.

- ikea isn't replacing my fucking kallax??? it had a straight up dent/hole in one of the big boards and it wasn't very hide-able. so they let me return the one with a broken part and they're supposed to ship me a new one, but the shipping keeps getting delayed and delayed again??? i NEED this kallax for college because i am currently doing all my work from a dresser with the drawers pulled out. i know the kallax is a shelf unit but i have a desk attachment for it that will finally give me enough space to properly do my work, write, draw, and use my laptop not in my lap. its a gaming laptop so it burns me. thankfully customer service has been understanding n stuff. i guess. also don't EVER be mean to customer service. i feel like i should say that because i've seen people be mean to customer service people at airports and it kinda makes me wanna throw a chair at the rude person LMAO

- dolly parton, tim curry, peter cullen, and others... (don't say yayoi kusama lol she was racist to the point where an apology could never erase those words...) WE MISS YOU SO MUCH TIM :(((((((

good news though:

- myra moved to new york city and it kinda gave me motivation to get my life "together" (in quotes cuz that looks different for everyone) and get my license, get a job, and go off to actual college in maryland, virginia, or new york. i'm really looking at FIT SUNY in new york city. myra kinda wants to have a little apartment together so we can split the rent and live comfortably, and i do too. being alone in a tiny studio apartment sounds really boring, and it could be much cheaper than living in a college dorm.

- i'm doing pretty good in my college classes i guess?

- lots of animal photography has taken place. soon i wanna go to eglin air force base early in the morning to watch the fighter jets be washed and take some pics. hehe its like washing a giant baby birdie :3

- i'm starting to build a portfolio to apply for FIT and other colleges i've looked at and i think i might have an okayish chance if i lock in?

anyways bye bye i have to go do my hair and put on sunscreen since i'm going shopping today for that perfect pair of shorts i've been looking for, hopefully hitting up walmart for liquid eyeshadow and some sort of eye primer or concealer, and then mayyyyybe seeing if there's a spirit halloween for some last minute whatevers for the mcr concert. also don't freak out... but i am FLYING into texas on SEPTEMBER ELEVENTH for MY CHEMCIAL FUCKING ROMANCE. oh my god...