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im almost 19 and i just clocked that i had an alcohol problem at 14-16. i used to think me going out for drinks after cram school friday saturday sunday EVERY SINGLE WEEK was considered normal which it was for us but i used to get tipsy every night AND i used to be apart of several friendgroups that i wouldnt talk to outside of drinking activities. i guess alcohol used to help my neurodivergent anxious self socialise . now i barely drink sure ill go drink once in a while but i know my limits. still smoking since 15 tho but its ok its a lifestyle that hasnt done be bad like other things ;D