lil rant 7-29-2026

i have a cousin and we don’t visit each other a whole lot so the only photos we have together are the ones from our visit like two years ago. we facetime a lot so we’re close but it feels slightly one sided. she acts like im her favorite person in the whole world but idk she’s not as huge as a deal to me, just being honest. of course i still love her but not as obsessively as she loves me, yk? she has tiktok and instagram and all that and i don’t. she loves to post about her best friends and im one of them but i absolutely hate the photos and videos she chooses. i had a horrible haircut at the time we saw her last and the videos- im embarrassingly awkward on video it’s SO BAD and she’s posting it all for everyone to see and then the rest of my family sees it and then they show me and i just want to crawl in a hole and die. i stopped having the same socials as the rest of my family altogether because the amount of times this has happened. i just wish i had control over what got posted of me.