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i have therapy again in a few days (if everything goes as planned) and i've just been nervous about if things are actually gonna follow through because the program that helps me with it had a dramatic cut this year. the system is kinda literally falling apart so i am keeping my hopes at a reasonable level. 

i really count on it but the whole uncertainty aspect is really making me a wreck. i like to think that i'm a regulated person but i haven't gotten anything about any dates or times and it's throwing me off super bad because i am a huge freak about dates and times.

it's a week that i can have completely on my own every few months with the bonus of yummy yummy therapy. and shopping. elevators. and so so so so so many people that don't know me. the only con is that i can't see my cat for a few days😔 

my favourite thing about these weeks is i like to buy cigarettes (i don't smoke) just so i can give them to people, and they're great for starting conversation😸 i also like telling people to keep the change because i feel very generous. and there's so much litter to pick up. i also have excuses to be very polite and display manners. and i also get a lot of compliments so basically its the best place in the world, ez.