Loneliness.

My friends this will be a short blog to get heavy stuff off my chest but I do hope you guys don’t experience this. It’s horrible. 

For context I for a few months now started feeling horribly lonely. The whole feeling of “nobody will ever love me”.

This came about when my ex-boyfriend and I broke up. I am on the acespec and also deeply religious so I made it clear to him that I didn’t want any intimacy of THAT kind before getting married. He did everything in his power to attempt to change my mind (which did not work), and then when he realised he’d get nowhere, he resorted to accusing me of extremism, being a cult-follower, so on and so forth. 

This instilled in me a new “flaw”: the fact that I can’t give men what they “really want”.

So now I’m stuck in a spiral in which I think no man will want me because of that. Which I know is stupid… But I have tried to reason with my own mind and it just doesn’t work. 

Anyway, I’ll try my best to work through it. You guys have a good day though…! 

And if anyone here can relate to how I feel, remember you’re not alone in being alone. Some people are like islands along a vast ocean; nothing to connect them. How does an island know there are millions more in the sea if it cannot see them?