Loving feels gross

That disgusting feeling of love, longing for someone has been bugging me for quite a long while 

I fell gross, inconvenient and ugly

A meager glimmer of hope makes me want to open myself up with my bare hands, might hurt less than that horrible feeling of anxiety that creeps into my gut and crushes my heart

I'm obsessed, I'm jealous and possessive 

I hope you forgive me for having all those feelings for you

I hope I forgive myself for allowing those feelings to take over me