making music (and art) not FUN ANYMORORRE!!🐂💨

im having a blank canvas effect like when you go to draw somthing, but nothing comes to mind and nothing you try advances to anything; im having that musically. but its been going for years and years.  i dont think of myself as a full 'producer'., i have workflows that constantly change based on how im feeling and i think i should be much more skillful and visionary than i am if i wanna call myself that, imposter syndrome or whatevver, a bit after i started (like early 2020 i think , so 2022 -around then) the stuff i made was cool i still like a lot of it but now everything i make is just me week after week, unable to do anything, then one day i get lucky with bullshit. from scratch or from samples, or both. it still doesnt feel good anymore. i think ive gotten worse over the years, no way i havent.

i dont care what genre i end up making, ive tried mixing genres, and trying to just "letting it flow". i just want to be able to make things again. to have fun. i search for advice everywhere and all it is- "take a break" (ive done that numerous times). "find other hobbies" (ive been doing that, i even picked up soccer again after years). "listen to more genres/music" (thats all i ever do) or the worst shit i EVER seen  "just make it fun" like alright pal i never thought of that waow,,

the process isnt fun and i cant even make anything to begin with. i try sound designing, messing with everything i possibly can and somehow it all ends up sounding the same, as if i put the same effect on it all. i think all my creativity is gone, if i had it. i mightve just got lucky and thought i was able to do something when i wasnt. same with drawing and digital art. i would "learn it all again" but i try and everytime i try to learn something new now i either forget it, it doesnt work with how my brain thinks or im too stupid. i think i have so many learning disabilities that anything new kinda just gets shot back out when it enters my mind if its not the most basic 1. 2. 3. thing ever. idk!!