mary jane steals my dreams

my usage is dwindling simply because i've been too broke to indulge but honestly after the first week my body learned how to work by itself and i don't miss smoking as much as i thought i would. one thing really fucking with me is that my dreams are back FULL force

its been so long that i forgot that i used to have super weird vivid dreams, i'm usually not myself in them and sometimes it feels like time traveling or like i'm watching someone else's memories, recently though ive been myself in them, and in super meta alternate versions of places ive been, or seeing weird alien shit, or talking to someone i know irl and they don't act like themselves, but when i notice i get kicked out of the dream??? i feel schizo explaining it. i don't watch zombie or alien movies or anything like that because i genuinely can't stand them so i dont know where they are coming from

maybe to rationalize what i'm going through my brain is just jumping to the nearest visual conclusion that matches how i feel. im not scared and theyre not really nightmares i just really don't like it. i have had dreams when i was younger that when i gain awareness and stay in it the area of my life that is represented in the dream drastically changes.... (Please tell me this makes sense) but idk. 

regardless im trying not to escape it by rolling a blunt because i know eventually it'll pass and i'll feel better so what the fuck ever