midnight rambling

words that appeared in my mind a few minutes ago:

between the time i spend avoiding social interaction and the internet, i sit on sites like this just to feel some thrill

for too long after the first notification i stick around

awaiting another

not often does it come

i still wait

on every site

or app

all my zero follower accounts

-even the private ones

i guess i dislike the false interest

but also the lack of it entirely 

once its been long enough without

i go away again

until the solitude is overwhelming 

and the real world offers not much more

many things control my mind

until they dont

important-

until something else distracts better

or i feel i've underachieved 

p.s. i’m not expecting nor desiring a specific sort of comment. i am just sharing thoughts i made readable.