moms

sooo my mom lowkey has a very little will to live (both hinted at and outright said),she might not remember telling us but she has,also it was just super obvious since i was a little kid,partly because whenever i couldn't find her i was worried she'd hung herself in her room even if i did just check it and she wasn't there(i once told her this and she said "im too fat to be hung" so that's comforting...?i mean then there's no possibility of her doing it),uhm...yeah,complaining(i guess that's what this is?) feels weird but its just on my mind recently,she keeps saying she can't handle more bad news,which is very fair but also it's a little concerning because i don't know what's too much bad news at once,but it's not hard because i try not to watch stuff that's too heavy anyway,gonna not go down a weird path again