I, as with most people, seem to have an increasingly more difficult time with feeling motivated to do things. Obviously its a spectrum, some days I feel so out of it and hazy, i don't get out of bed until almost noon, some not at all. Some days i go around and just haunt my room until i feel the drive to do something tangible and propel myself forward. Its not I'm uninterested in things, actually I have that exact opposite issue. I enjoy things maybe too much. I like games so i play them too much, i like good food so I'm overweight, i enjoy the company of others so i see my friends more than i tend to my actually responsibilities, and its hard to find the self control or motivation to change these nasty habits. I like productive things, i like things that make me feel good. I like playing and learning my instruments, but it takes actual brain power, so id rather just play a game or watch video essays on youtube. i like reading, it takes brain power, so ill just go to a show, or hangout with friends. I wish i cared about school,. or being productive, or working to be better. Simply being a better friend to myself tomorrow. But as of now i suppose ill wish for that but remain relatively the same.
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