Backstory: Covid fucked me up and I was forced to be homeschooled in my freshman year. Unfortunately I'd developed agoraphobia somewhere between 14 and 16. I missed out on being a teenager.
The fact that I will be eighteen soon freaks me out because I didn't get to enjoy being a teenage girl and now I've got two years left of being one. Except I can't be a stupid teenager because I will be an adult.
I've been having an extesemtal crisis over this. It made me start thinking of the day I'll be old and I am just so scared that I might look back and realize I wasted all of my life.
And I feel selfish because a boy from the school passed at 18. EIGHTEEN. I'm complaning about getting old and wishing I had done more when he doesn't even get the chance to truly live.
Anyways if you can't tell I'm dramatic.
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xxwez
to be really honest, just because you turn 18 doesnt mean you're an adult automatically. it feels like it and everyone says so, but it's not, coming from someone who's almost 20 yet feels like they're 16-17 still. There's still plenty of time to live and make mistakes like we should have.
toot toot
I think u have very very intense FOMO.
It’s best not to dwell on the past and think about the good things in the future