My ex-crush made a blog about how retarded she is

Why will nobody fucking listen to me? They listen to the fucking pretty girls instead. She’s so fucking dumb, she thinks that she is ugly when she obviously is not. I don’t understand that, like if I thought I wad ugly and made a blog about it nobody would give a shit. She gets a sympathetic fucking boy to be like “you might be around the wrong people, or you should go to counseling” nobody tells me shit, they just fucking ignore me. I’m so fucking glad she is doing so shitty, and I’m enjoying my life more. I fucking hate everyone I love the most, including her. She fucking told me to kill myself, she fucking told me I am pathetic, all I did was cyberstalking her. Trust me I could have done way worse, and I’m capable of way worse. I could kill anyone I want if I think it through enough, I could fucking doxx her, I could do anything. I think stalking her for less than a year is the least I could do. And personally if I knew that a girl was stalking me, I would deadass be glad. Nobody gives a shit about me anyway, I can’t fucking relate. I feel bad for her, but nobody fucking wants to talk to me. Going to a school doesn’t help, using freind rewind doesn’t help I won’t ever have any damn real freinds. Though shoutout to the people who genuinely talk to me and care about my well being, but I fucking can’t with this shit. I need to find a new crush, this fucking bitch is pissing me off. Even if she didn’t make blogs about how ugly and retarded she is, I still would hate her as much. I hate her mostly because I love her, and obsess over her so much, not because she sees herself so badly. Im gonna go fucking make deep thoughts music until my eyes tear up from what I’m taking about. I don’t want to die, but I fucking hate my life. And if acting suicidal, or depressed, or self-deprivation, or “erm I’m so retarded” will get me attention ill do all I can. I want to fucking kill people, and if you know me in real life in your in danger. Step off bitch. Fuck.