my friend has maybe the worst friend group ever

The friend group that me and my friend have built over the years is absolutely rancid. I didn’t make it as much as she and her other friend did because I don’t like having more than 1 friend at once and everyone else just being acquaintances because I’m #intense like that. I think this group mainly came together because we were all neurodivergent children, though in wildly different ways, and if one of us was friends with someone we’d bring our other friend and so on 

She has her main friend aside from me, who did something terrible to her last year that she still stays with because they’re still in classes. She says he’s nice sometimes but I think he’s extremely annoying. I think he should heal from what he did like what I’ve done but I don’t think my friend should have to interact with the guy who traumatised her

Then there’s the really short Christian who is fairly nice, but he’s mentally 10 years old. I like him aside from his immaturity, he’s nice to talk to aside from being indoctrinated into a religion (im heavily anti-theist)

Then me. I’ve been quite toxic to people in the past, and while I am and have been working on being a better person and taking accountability (I’ve already taken accountability no need to cancel me), I’m still extremely asocial and I dislike 2 of her friends, alongside wanting to walk around 24/7 at break and lunch because that’s what I did with my last friend. I’m the routine breaker basically

There’s also this one guy who isn’t exactly in our group but I think he has some symptoms of my type of neurodivergence (personality disorders), but he’s incredibly annoying and callous. It’s clear that he hasn’t had the Canon Event that forces people like us to get emotional intelligence. He’s constantly doing weird things to Christian friend and I feel bad for him. 

I don’t think that me and the Christian kid are… insanely bad? While I was a despicable person in the past I am fairly good at giving advice and being a somewhat stable and reliable person. Christian kid, aside from being a Christian, IS very nice and generous. The other two, though, I can say no good things about. I don’t exactly hate the third guy but I do hate the first guy and I always have… I could sense his evil like a dog could smell cancer