my friends don't know by dandelion hands (yap/vent)

rn im writing this at 3 am and I feel like im losing my mind. Honestly I feel like this every summer and its probably a big problem that i should try to atleast figure out why?? because I acknowledge that its a reoccurring thing. I'd take a guess and say thats its probably from how late im waking up, because of me going to sleep so late like around 4-5 am, and waking up at 1-3 pm. Even after waking up at 3, I still have to prioritize my homework over all the fun stuff here, which is pretty rough to do, especially with my computer sitting here with minecraft on the screen 🤤🤤. I do feel pretty lonely tho, and I'm not gonna say im excited for school just for the people or the work, cause im not. Obviously no one is but I despise the people at my school. I hate my birthday (august 19) not only cause its right after school starts, every time my birthday comes around, my grandpa decides to go camping and last year, everyone went but me. Thats not the only problem I have with it tho, everytime we've celebrated it, it was mediocre and just didn't feel good. Last year I cried reading a card and I think that was because I didn't cry for a good 6 months. I dont think i really have anything else to say and Im really tired its like 3:40 am rn, and if i know u, I don't.