My hatred to math (and my math teacher)

I really hate math, always have honestly. Even basic things like addition can be a struggle sometimes and I have to count on my fingers. Long division? I have to wright it out. Multiplication? I dont have it memorized. Subtraction? Similer to addition. Also learning new things in math just doesn't make sense... it just looks like a jumble of numbers and other variables like pie and x. I thought it was just the simple fact I wasn't a math person, most people struggle with math anyway so its not uncommon. Turns out I have fun fun fun dyscalculia (dyslexia for math)! Isn't that just so fun! I could've had a 504 plan to at least get a C In math ENTIRE TIME and just didn't all cuz I didn't get tested. So what my teacher does? Refuses to acknowledge my struggle and dumbs it down to "your not trying!" Then not helping explain when I ask for help. Not to mention she doesn't even teach well just solves some example problems slowly then expects us to understand. At this point its not even just me having a math disability, everyone in her math class struggles. The only people who dont are people who teach themselves math and actually enjoy it.