my life eating disorde bullying

i have a problem with trusting people ive been dissapointed too many time tried to change myself did everything but nothing still untill i was 13 i have known 3 mean girls that were some really big bullies but i didnt really care about them and yk my mates hated me ever since kinder garden and sinc ive lived in a small town they were the same till nitnh grade imagine like 10 years of being bullied one of the girls was really the meanest of all other then the fact that she used to hit me alot and say hurtfull things she made all the teachers hate me and all that dont matter bc what hurt me most was in 7th grade when i had my first ever crush and i was a bit overweight when i confessed everything started i got rejected they made a group for three years just to bullie me thats when i started my ed jurny i stopped eating for a year and a half i kept on throwing up anything i ate for a year and a half i only ate ice untill i went to the hospital and spent  a month there i definetly lost my hezlth but almost my period but what i lost most was my self respect and i dtill have a diseas till this day but atleast im skinny but yk nothing lasts i changed towns shools everythin and thats when i met marry one of thet best people i met