my life is so useless

the title is kinda depressing but i genuinly have nowhere else to speak abt this. recently i havent been doing anything. like i get home from school, get yelled at for an hour, go to sleep, sometimes eat, then i take a shower. life has been so draining. like 10th grade has to be the 2nd worst grade for me oat. i dont enjoy doing anything anymore, everything just feels like a chore. i dont watch movies, i dont go on pinterest, i dont edit pictures anymore really, i dont talk to anyone. like i dont do anything in life. mostly thats becuase i have no friends anymore. because i had my cousin but she is just like ignoring me now. not ignoring me but talking to her friends instead of me when we have been close our whole life. like obv she doesnt just have to talk to me but she doesnt try to include me either so thats been rough. also my grades are the worst theyve ever been, like im struggling so hard and i just feel so stupid. my whole geometry class is mostly 9th graders and theyre all 10 times smarter than me, also everyone in my grade is. i just feel like i cant even do anything, like simple hobbies. like drawing for example like i see all these people and theyre good at so many things. yet i can even stick to one thing. i just dont know what to do anymore. i just feel so unloved and i know that sounds stupid but i do feel it. my parents seem to not love me i mean they dont really love eachother, again i have no friends, and i dont have a bf. like ik i dont need one but i see all these cute couples and i just like wonder why no guys talk to me. is it becuase im ugly, or becuase im not talkative like idk. sorry abt this i just needed to say something. but i also have these random burst of happiness and i do so much, and im really productive. but then it goes away and i feel more depressed. ill probably regret typing this in the moring