My mom

Okay I love my mom, right? but she just gets on my nerves sometimes anduhgghewj I HATE IT!!
She keeps saying stuff about my chosen name, which is Kasper, it used to be something similar to my deadname but I don't like that one anymore. anywaaaayy uhmm she's been saying stuff like "Why can't I pick your new name?" or mentioning that stupid ghost Casper
earlier she asked if I wanted to use the name Kastel or fucking KASSIOUS?? Like no mother I do not want to be named Kassious </3

Other than that, she's kinda guilt trippy I think? sometimes when I or my little sister bring up school she gets upset and says we are rubbing it in her face that she never sent us to school
Or if I point something bad out about my baby sister she's like "I know I'm such a horrible mom!!" or something else
It just makes me feel bad that I even said anything in the first place and sometimes I don't even know if I'm actually the one in the right because of that

And then she'll be like "I haven't seen you all day" because I don't leave my room very often even though???? she literally gives me no reason to leave my room, like, if she wanted to see me more why can't she actually take me OUTSIDE of the house???? I barely leave the house because again NO SCHOOL and I live in the middle of fucking nowhere so I can't leave myself

And I remember one time I brought up to her that I think I have autism when I was like 12 or 13 (STILL PRETTY SURE I DO) and she just brushed me off like it was nothing?? actually still get pretty upset even thinking about that man

I don't even know man, I don't think she should've had kids at all honestly. Like, I love her and all, but I just can't stand her sometimes!!