My Mom

So, first of, my parents are Korean so the Asian household type sort of except it's kind of the wannabe Americans I guess (mostly my mom because Korea tends to wanna copy Americans). Second, I'm 20 years old. I feel like I'm being babied like I'm 9 or 10 again. She's done the same exact thing when I was at that age.

My dad goes to billiards every Saturday and I like to go with him but my mom told him to not take me today and that pissed me off so much. I started crying in bed (usually how I react from stress and anger, I can't help it). I remember she didn't want me to go before because she was worried. Worried that I have no friends (I have friends, I just don't socialize much and they're busy) and don't go out much (I don't have a car and my parents work but my friends' parents can pick me up I guess but they're busy as well and I'm paranoid of bothering). I literally like staying home and I go to billiards to hang out (I don't play, I first went there to see my dad's friends again but the second time I go there because I just wanna avoid my mom). She also thinks I go there for money (because my dad's friends give me money), but I don't want money, I just like going there because my dad's friends are there (in our culture we call them uncles and aunts but I'll call them my dad's friends for now). I likes this ever since I was a baby, I liked seeing my aunts and uncles. I don't care about money, I'm gonna start working next month too.

I always say my mom's a narcissist (may have used that word on her very wrongly but I don't know what else) or I always thought she's a manipulative abuser (this relates to something happening years ago).

I wanna know what all of this means about my mom and what it means about myself.

I might list out stuff about my mom soon just to share more stuff about her.